I know your going to see this. You better read every damn word I have to say, because I mean it.

"You gave up on me."
No, but I'm about to.

I have busted my ASS trying to change things. I've been happier than I've been in a long time, because I've been working on myself. I give EVERYTHING I HAVE to make you happy. EVERYTHING. I sacrifice my feeling of self worth, because I try not to say anything when you constantly degrade me. I know your joking (maybe), but it still hurts my feelings. Ever heard of the word, "Sorry"? Instead of being like, "I'm not joking with you anymore", just fucking say sorry. Is that not in your vocabulary. If you can't tell by reading this that it really hurts me, then your not quite as smart as I thought.

Anyway...

I work and work and work to make things better. I feel walked on.
Know why I deal with it?
BECAUSE I LOVE YOU, YOU FUCKING IDIOT!
But it doesn't phase you because you don't know what heartbreak is truly like. Do you know what it feels like when the one person on the whole entire Earth who completely has your heart 100% doesn't give a shit about you? Of course you don't know.

I know this sounds harsh, but I'm just...BLEHHHHHH!

Help me out here. For real.
I love you, and it kills me.

I know you'll see this, and when you do, send me a message or something.
Call me.
Talk to me at school.

Anything. Let me know what your thinking.


And by the way, you gave up on me first.